(GABI'S SONG)
words and music by Steve Schalchlin
as heard on THE BONUS ROUND SESSIONS
a benefit album for Youth Guardian Services
She found some words
left in his notebook
The only clue he left behind
And from the words left
in his notebook
She saw into his tortured
mind
Fear was hanging in the air
He left a simple questionnaire
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
IS EVERYTHING SET IN STONE?
IS THERE NOTHING I CAN CHANGE?
WILL I ALWAYS BE ALONE?
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
IS EVERYTHING SET IN STONE?
IS THERE NOTHING I CAN FIX?
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
She took the notebook from
his bedroom
Cuz he would never write
again
She wondered could his words
mean something
In lives of other kids like
him
Her plans became crystal
clear
His words ringing in her
ear
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
IS EVERYTHING SET IN STONE?
IS THERE NOTHING I CAN CHANGE?
WILL I ALWAYS BE ALONE?
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
IS EVERYTHING SET IN STONE?
IS THERE NOTHING I CAN FIX?
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
So she went on the internet
And radio and Rikki Lake
And told the story of her
young son Bill
Cuz she knew his life could
stand for something still She said
IF WE LET IT STAY LIKE THIS
THEN WE HAVE HEARTS OF STONE
THERE’S SO MUCH WE CAN CHANGE
WE’RE NOT IN THIS FIGHT
ALONE
IT’LL NEVER STAY LIKE THIS
WE WILL NEVER STOP THE FIGHT
Oh, oh, oh.
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS
WILL IT ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS
© 2000 by Lil Shack o Tunes/See No Evil Music
Bill Clayton's mother Gabi has a website at
http://members.tripod.com/~claytoly/
where she tells the story of the suicide
of her son, Bill,
who was both a victim of a pedophile rape
and then a gaybashing.
It was the following paragraph that inspired
the title.
Gabi writes:
"He didn't leave a suicide note, but he had said to me before he was hospitalized after the rally that he was just tired of coping.It was the constant knowledge that at any time he could be attacked again simply because of who he was... that despite the love of his family and friends all he could see ahead was a lifetime of facing a world filled with hate and violence, going from one assault to another. He was 17 years old..."
Youth Guardian Services (http://www.youth-guard.org/bonusround)
The money from the purchase of the CD will be donated
directly to YGS in the name of Richard E. Remley
Steve's website at http://ww.bonusround.com